The Silence Of Laughter!

I stood there in the crowded and the noisiest playground at school but it wasn't noisy to my ear nubs. I could not hear anything, it was like everything was awkwardly silent and as if people dubbing. The voices faded from me. Everything was silent because in the noisiest place I assumed silence, thus silence was within me as if any lips glued and mind was used to everyday school fusses. Until one of my friend who is little in height but perhaps has a long hand that is the only reason she showed her hand to me with fries, offering me to have it. All the numbness and silence flew and I rushed upstairs. 
Some how I have forgotten laughter or how to smile apart from the jokes I crack with giggles. And I feel like the most worst person on earth when I see faces! The laughter one, the little hugs, the celebration of winning, the talks, the jealousy and the friends with even more friend because I never had them, Never had so freed mind at ease or great friends like they had!

Picture by Ayesha Riaz.

 Back at home I sat in the dining room with a pile of old unsorted papers, I could hear a "whoosh" sound constantly from outside at a 30 second interval, I was warmed up and I could hear kids in my neighborhood playing. It was a perfect silence as I read a novel which made me sink. I could see how the sunlight entered through dark curtains and then dimmed. The sound of wind took my attention. I went into the kitchen, looked around if anyone was watching and opened the '7-up bottle', without even bothering to pour it in a glass I slurped it right from its vent and quickly rounded up the cap! After swallowing fistful of ' chicken pulao ' I snaked my way outside. I stood right next to the door as the wind tossed my wet hair, it felt like all the impurities and obstacles in my mind were taken away. Everything appeared much slower than normal, only the wind and tall trees swinging like wind champs. the silence of laughter for once made me realize the world of nature is the most awesome-est thing and that nothing was at the odds.
Perhaps sometimes nature puts you into the leading role of a film and you are like harrowing yet exhilarating!
-----As those tears bowled along my eyelids, I tried to take them in. I was wishing they won't come out. My neck pained as I tried to endure all those tears. My teacher saw me quiet and she asked me the question "Ayesha, what is the gradient for line A and the equation?" I starred at my note book and I couldn't figure out the right answer, I  uttered "4" and she answered "Its -1/4x + 4" I nodded and brought my knuckles closer to my eyes, rubbed them with my eyeballs and wondered if things would go on just the way I want them to. It wasn't that I had got less marks but that they weren't the ones which could make my mum go up the stage. And all the others had got satisfying marks too. But what I learned was that those obstacles are a part of reality and that everyone has to do something or the other before they leave, so perhaps there must be something for me as well to do and that I'll soon realize. Its not only me or yo at the odds or its not only you who'll get all the desired.Thus there are people who'll also have happiness like you do and would result there hard work or deceived personality.
 But for now jealousy is just not the right thing to do!-->Have faith in God and of course you'll be someone or do something even if you don't know what!


Written by your Bubble mate,
Ayesha Riaz:)