Saturday, August 13, 2011

Ephemera!

After having mum's handmade and the most yummiest,zestiest 'chanay wali chaat'  in Iftari and offering our Maghrib prayers we sat in our sofas watching T.V.  Right after watching "Did you know that?" and "Mad Labs" we scrolled channels from Cartoon Network to Geo and from Geo to the most schizophrenic channel. We started discussing how Ms.xyz puts so so irrelevant and farcical thoughts into her dramas. By now I hope you people would have understood what I am exactly talking about.:D (But that's not what I really want to talk on further) We heard  a voice like somebody slamming our nearby washroom door, goodness it didn't had some squeaky handle or else we would have concluded a paranormal or ghostly activity.(I think I should stop using that word otherwise I would not be able to listen a haunted show tonight on FM) Anyways it went all so sudden and unexpected yet so blissful! I felt the real ephemera even now while I write this.


My sister could hear a whooshing sound from Launch window, like the voice of horse's hooves hitting the ground hard slightly less than that. "Rain, Rain" she almost started shouting so did I, leaving my laptop at the side of table and gushing towards the door. Even if anyone would have told me my blog is being awarded :DI wouldn't stop because it was RAINING and that surely was a great feeling, instead seldom to be seen at least for all the Karachites! *drums beating and whistles*


"Bhayee when would it rain in Karachi...huh"  The whole vacations hearing about Rain all over Pakistan except Karachi on Geo was a feeling of jealousy all the time! Our rainy days where almost unlikely every morning when the sun arose. But it didn't meant impossible actually in a way Allah was waiting just for the right time to open the showers of the dark, ponderous clouds for Karachi so that's special isn't it?
As I rushed outside in the garden towards the backside of our house, above me I could hear the thick water droplets tipping on the leaves and ground. I ran with all the wind blowing in my face, almost wet, trying to feel the pleasant aroma of mud and rain in my vicinity. The rain didn't stop all those hours, it was raining harder by now and I was shivering now. I sat on our door-step my teeth clinching with each other, my jaw was quivering and body shaking. The wind tossed my hair, whispered in my ear, hypnotizing me towards the pleasant atmosphere, it was so cold, even it is now so Mr.Bubble Blog you should have known so thank me for letting you know how the world had suddenly become. Some having goosebumps, some worrying, some being so excited that they rushed to the roofs and screamed, the night had totally turned wet. I wanted the moment to pause, everything to stay the same, same numbness a gratifying one but yes I had to come out from the illusions in my mind and back in house planning for tomorrow. I wish I had a Nikon to capture all that anyways I still had a Digital little Sony to capture Independence (14th Aug).;)
And just when I checked my Facebook after that there were many statuses for rain, just in some hours rain had gathered many fans. 
Ramadan, nearly 14th August and Rain, such an awesome feeling. I feel so contended. Thank-you so much Allah! The weather had turned perfectly the way we had photo-shopped it in our minds to be.


We had prayed a lot for rain and it finally rained now so why not raise our hands towards him and thank him, who blessed us with everything, our taps have water but we still want rain, that mesmerizing feeling of something awesome taking place and a reason to smile. Lets raise our hands and thank him today for showering his blessings on us even on a sinner. Why regret he knows whats better for you. thats what I call the night just before 14th August.


And and and Happy Independence Day.(Since its 14th by now because its above 12 am) ;)We love you Pakistan.It's almost always that mom has the strongest and the quietest influence on us. She balances so many roles and she does it all with a smile and that's what our country does:Pakistan! All over facebook you'd see almost every Pakistani changing the profile pictures to green slogans or flags or even the poses of salutes:D!
Its the love that comes from the core of heart from the whole nation to its country!:) Happy Independence day once again! Proud to be a Pakistani. So lets get started with the Mili-naghmas.
Stay blessed Pakistan♥





Picture by Ayesha Riaz.


Written By your bubble mate,
Ayesha Riaz:-)




Friday, August 5, 2011

How I landed up on Mars...

lDear blog,
Today I do not have any topic to talk about instead I have something to share just because I couldn't keep it in. The best part about telling you things is that you don't answer neither question. You keep my things tightly tucked in a 1.
I trust you :
All the way from nursery making elephant puzzles I have landed up on a forest, I don't know what exactly it is but i am not familiar with it. I have forgotten to fly. This forest has hundreds of tall trees that I probably can not pen down. Huge dark holes in the ground, more like air-holes, they keep on pulling me down, down and under the ground. Am I lost? "No you haven't, you are just scared to move on" my inner soul tells me. What do I do? Please don't ask I am on a struggle of life. Make myself believe that what I have photoshopped in my mind is not a forest, its the real world, Its Earth! 
I never ever wanted to grow up and that's the real thing inside me, bothering me. I never wanted to see my own nation in bloodshed, to learn the real meaning of 'good people', to know myself. But sometimes the thing that bothers me more is why god sent me on this planet?, its all a chaos now. Can I backspace my life and be in a cradle again? "No you can't, you are just trying to escape from future" my inner soul tells me.


This isn't the world of my dreams, its cruel, hungry, unbelievable, unexpected and still the greatest habitat for humans. Not for me. A habitat has food, shelter, protection and mates perhaps I do not have the whole package. Things seem so different now, its not the same puzzle making homework it has grown tougher now. There is a feeling rising in me, a feeling of not facing tomorrow. The feeling that everybody has on the first day of school.
I was just thinking how I landed up on Mars, I meant how I grew and came to know 'Dunya'. The haunting truth of Earth: Nobody gets out so easily! Now my inner soul tells me now: Pre-nursery lied to you, Earth isn't the same as making elephant puzzles its about fixing and joining the pieces of your future puzzle. I am so not worth anything.


When I was in Play-group, I wanted to be in next higher grades like the big girls and boys around, but now when I am that girl I wanted to be I long to be the same two pony girl with a barbie, trolley bag!
So the main objective I wanted to share with you blog was how I thought I had landed on Earth but in reality on Mars! 
But then sometimes why do I feel like I am living in a cage not a castle? In Mars not Earth? In a spider web with no presence in the world? Why do I feel there is x ahead? I feel everybody has silent files within the loud actions they pose. I am sorry I know its mad to share something more like a riddle but it just happened, I didn't find anyone suitable or maybe Mr.blog you have started to be a bit more nicer to me! I still have that feeling of a nursery child at his first day of school, missing holidays, sobbing inside (not that much) :P, and and and saying ''mama kay paas jana hai''. Zalim zamana! :D


When I see some other bubbles sometimes I feel there life is perfect mine is not! And sometimes, they have got even a hard time than mine, they have disability even a bigger problem and I am crying for this, for this little one! Sorry again my fingers just went on I know I shouldn't share it with you blog but how insane of me I did. I actually did. Riddled it and didn't told you the problem. In short Summary Once upon a time, I was a person who’d talk to anyone, unafraid – but insecurity and fear of not pleasing people has crept in and grown into this nasty, thorny weed, often crowding out the desire to be bold. Fear often trips up any desire!
I hate Dunya-its confusing, barely understandable! Like old ragged newspapers, hollow closed boxes and silent files, thats where I lie. I know. If only Allah changes this, if only my opinion goes wrong and IF only he helps me be loud and not lie in silent files where even laughter is numb. Huh! I thank him, I don't know how.
He has always been there, listened my prayers. I have no words to thank him. Allah is the only hope and happiness of something good ahead that is going to happen, in my mind!  What I think is that where ever Allah is putting you there must be something or the other better for you. :)

  • So go where he takes you, but oh yes watch the path! ;)



So bubble mates when ever you feel tangled up and that you are all messed up/caged always think of he who created you, he who sent you, he who gave you life and the little bounties. What ever he'll do, it would be better for you. And only he knows why you belong here. Why only you?


Yours (careless)
Bubble mate.

Ayesha Riazb







From Dawn To Dusk...

I wrote it when I was in my 6th grade, couldn't get time to re-edit it so there is the old copy of this poem, in which a child is conversing with his country, imagining how things haven't changed yet.
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Picture by Ayesha Riaz.
From dawn to dusk,
from smiles,
to painful miles,
that hides you in shame,
that covers you in the voices of blames,
that causes you to decay,
that causes you to whisk away,
...And why still pay for what not done?
From happiness,
to cries,
from the love of morning glory,
to sighs,
...And yet the pain never dies,
Dawn brought a new hope,
till dusk it ended up,
with a boom of gunshot,
from dawn to dusk,
you haven't moved an inch,
just those little clinches,
...And why still pay for what not done?
Dusk has took over dawn,
Yet your cells haven't took over your wounds,
till when would all this be?
till when every dusk would conquer every dawn?
Till when you'll pay for what not done?
...And yet the pain never dies,
Oh god have mercy on our nation,
we await for a new dawn,
we await for a better dusk,
our country won't die,
it would re-live the smiles,
There is bloodshed all over,
...And yet the hopes are high,
Yet the courage hasn't died.


Monday, August 1, 2011

Ramadan Mubarak!

"Yoghurt?" "Done!" "Milk?" "Done!" "Frozen parathas?" "Done!" "Dates?" "I totally forgot it..."
As women and men gush over to the fruit stalls and markets,bumper to bumper returning with trollies full of ingredients for Sehri and Iftari;notifies us how muslims all over the world prepare for fasting just the minute the moon is sighted.


After the holy month of Shaba'an comes a month of blessings,of peace and of control, the divine month of "Ramadhan".


Every muslim, men and women, kids and teens long for this sacred month. The excitement for fasting grows even more the day before 1st Ramadhan. I still remember the poem,


"Ramzan kay rozay aaein,
Hum jhoom jhoom jaein,
hum roza rakhna chahein,
tu ghar walay farmaein,
aglay saal, aglay saal, aglay saaaal!" 


Same was the case with me before turning 12 I use to bug mama a lot that I even want to fast but she always piped me down by saying:You can of course....a "Chirtria Roza" in which you can eat all you want! 


Ramadhan is the long waited month of purity and perhaps every capable muslim should fast and pray the whole month. Ask for forgiveness from Allah and pray for his blessings to be upon you and your family.
Control your moods and remember he is watching you. 
No evil deeds would enter your heart or mind the entire month as the devil is away. So be calm and don't let your inner-self out of control.


For now I'll leave you with this short note: Thank him for making you so capable, for giving you all the blessings, and for Ramadhan!
Let me be short this time so Happy Ramadhan to everyone.

Written by your bubble mate,
Ayesha Riaz:)